I hope the Lord may see fit that I should live long enough to have a head full of white hair. To live long enough to mark up my wood floors with tracks made from my wheelchair. To see the world change in a hundred years and wonder at the simplicity of what life used to be. And when our Father in Heaven takes me on home, and I stand before Him in judgement and He asks me "Have you lived a good Christian life? Did you love all and show love as I have?", and I reply with, "I hope it was to your standard." He would then ask "What about when your Ex denied you of your child, her mother allowing you to call him several times a week without picking up or returning your calls". To that I'd say "I gotta say, I think I did pretty good". "And when she continued to restrict you of contact, going as far as saying there will be no Skype, and you can only call on Saturdays, even after you got your lawyer involved again, how did you do then? Did you let anger posses you?" "No Father. As far as I can tell, I never let anger get to me."
After that, He would then decide on my fate, based on other things in my life and I'd go to Heaven or Hell. I honestly can't tell you that I'd make it to heaven. I'm sure there's always something that I can do to make myself a better Christian. Something that I don't know that I'm doing wrong, which through fasting and prayer I should be able to find out what that is and make it right.
I guess the point of all this is we all will be judged by our actions and thoughts. Even though she's still denying me my son, I still have to act like the better Christian because later on, I will be judged by how I responded. I have to act, not react to what shes doing.
