So back in 2003-2004 or so, I had a dream about my wife and I. We were only bf/gf at the time if even that. I only just had the dream discerned I believe last year, or early this year. I never told anyone, even my wife who was my gf at the time, until I had it discerned. Crazy thing is that a few weeks ago, I had, at least I think I did, a revelation which I intend to explain after the meaning. It was one of my Uncles, who was in the Spirit at the time, that translated it for me. So here we go.
It starts off in a desert wasteland. Its like an apocalypse. Dust blowing everywhere. No good thing growing. Trees are rare. I see mountains in the background. It's hot, the sun is out. Just a desert-like area after a nuclear bomb had gone off. It's almost as if I was in the sky because I see my wife below and I drop out of the sky to meet her face to face. She's crying. So sorrowful. She's hurt, emotionally. I'm somewhat distrustful of her. I'm not mad at her, it's just for some reason I don't trust her fully. I realize that in the background there's disasters coming for us. There's no where to hide. There's tornadoes, fireballs from the sky, tsunamis, and sand storms. All are converging on us. I look back on my wife and she says "I'm sorry for everything I did to you". As soon as she said that, my heart softened knowing that she was serious and for real, especially when I know that she has a problem with apologizing (at least she did back then, not sure about now). It was like we knew this was the end of the world and we had to forgive one another before we died. I held her and whispered to her, "I never stopped loving you." I may have said also, "I never left you to begin with", but I'm not entirely sure. I can't remember. As soon as we had forgiven one another and held and kissed one another in love, genuine love, I knew that she was mine forever. Then the 4 disasters swallowed us up as we held one another. We get hit with the tornado, sand storm, fireballs, and tsunami all at once. They were powerful too. To endure one disaster is one thing, to go through 4 at once, you can't live after that. We died together in each others arms. Then I woke up. At the time I wondered why would she have to apologize to me. I said to myself, there is nothing that she can do to me or against me that I won't forgive. I was confused at the time. I never told her, never told anyone till late '10 early '11. Thank you Jesus.
So here's the translation. The desert and the dust blowing around, the apocalypse, all that is in reference to my marriage (which is to say how my marriage was during the separation/divorce). My marriage, rather specifically the divorce, was the desert, the aftermath of a nuclear bomb. It was where no good thing could grow. The 4 disasters are God. It's going to take God to save our marriage, or rather, for us to forgive one another and come back together. Yet come back together in genuine love for one another. So God comes down to swallow us up, essentially he surrounds us. He gets in between us, gets all through us, surrounds us, just saturates us with His presence. Then we die together in one another's arms, which is to say that we die in God. God takes over in our lives so that we can be together.
So that's the general translation, so what about the possible revelation?
I was taking my little sister to work one morning, I think I was on my fast then, and after I dropped her off a thought hit me. You see I have Yahoo set as my homepage. So whenever I jump on the computer, there's Yahoo and they display whatever is going on in the country/world. So a couple times I logged on and saw a few things that Arizona was going through, natural disasters. At one point I saw fires to the east of Phoenix, at another time I saw, if I remember right, flooding/mudslides (not entirely sure bout that one), and I've also seen a major dust storm, one that swallowed the city. So a few weeks/months later after seeing these things randomly, I had this revelation. What if the dream was both spiritual and natural? Spiritual in that it shows what has to happen for us to be back together (in regards to God taking over), natural in that it's a timeline that has to be followed. For instance, she lives in Arizona now. It's a desert. It has mountains in it's backdrop. The 4 disasters were the tornado, tsunami, sand storm, and fireballs. There's a possibility that the fireballs were the fires to the east of Phoenix, the tsunami was the rain/mudslides (I'm still not sure if they had the rain/mudslides though), they just had a major sand storm recently. All that is left is the tornado, or a reference to one. Could that be the last disaster (or some reference to it) that has to happen before she comes back to me? It really shook me up that I had to come home and tell someone.
I don't know much of anything, but I do know that it was translated in the Spirit. I try not to dwell on the dream, just continue to pray for her safety, that she has a strong foundation in the Lord, her spirit be quickened by His, that her faith in God be strong. I pray for her forgiveness and mercy, and that she have confidence in herself. That she recognize her role as a mother and let no one take that from her, that her word is final in the upbringing of our son (as long as she's over there/until we get back together). I just pray that she train up our son the the righteous way, so that he too can make it into heaven. I pray that God touch her and deal with her as He sees fit, only His way is righteous.
I still pray for my wife.
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